it’s becoming apparent
that anxiety has manifested.
heart pounding against ribs,
hearing every beat,
clouded with thoughts,
crying on my bed, sobs.
pull me up, help me
i cry into the lonely scenery
as i sink into this pit of self pity.
i know i know 나도 알어
it’s not healthy at all
how to suppress it all
when the quick sand slowly
devours my sanity.
Voices in my head
say that I’m not great.
Till this date
no one can relate.
Keep it to myself ’cause
they don’t care,
they don’t listen,
they don’t understand.
Voices in my head speak the fear in my heart.
Maybe all these question marks
are where they should be,
locked in the dark.
too much of a skeptic
too much of a critic
shouldn’t expect everyone to get it
if my words are cryptic
i tried to
hold on to myself.
but efforts were in vain.
so is this why people believe in a higher power
so that they can have hope in this selfish world
but a critic and skeptic i remain
until i gain new knowledge again
I’m standing on the edge of the cliff
one step from falling into the reefs
eyes closed, breeze gently caressing my face,
listening to the waves crashing, slowly eroding the base,
like how these emotions wash away
a part of me day by day.
Tempted to take one step and join the currents
to be embraced by the vast ocean,
to finally succumb to my endless negativity.
After all, don’t we all belong to the sea?